LORD, LORD, YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH ME. I know when You whisper in my ear and I know Your presence; my heart warms with love. Only You, Lord, are always with me. Only You, Lord, know my heart. Only You, Lord, remain after everyone else is gone. In Your presence, I do not feel alone — I feel welcomed, I feel heard, I feel loved. You, Lord, who remain in me, and I in You, are my greatest treasure. Nothing on earth surpasses Your serene, eternal, and constant love. May Your grace surround me, may Your light walk through me. And may I be Your beloved child, who honors Your name.
Another day, and another powerful message the Lord leaves upon me. Another warning, another rebuke, another notice that breaks the barrier of the invisible and reaches matter. All I can think is: I am not worthy, Lord. I am not worthy of Your mercy. I have failed so much… The shadows of my failures still pursue me. And without Your light, I fear that these shadows will remain in me and make me fail in this mission.
I need You, Christ. Never leave me alone. Do not allow me to listen to Satan.
The responsibility is immense — and only Your light is capable of erasing my shadows.
I want You to walk with me, so that, through me, only Your will may be done. Thus, I allow the divine covenant of light to enter my life and accomplish whatever is necessary, so that I may honor and fulfill Your will in this life.
FORGIVE ME, LORD. I was in a hurry when, in truth, I needed discernment. I had frustration when, in truth, I needed understanding. I had pride when, in truth, I needed responsibility. Forgive me, Lord, for not having understood Your timing. Forgive me for having taken so long to realize. Forgive me for what I still do not understand and continue to complain about.
Each frustration, each impatience, each doubt, each time I felt pride — was a failure before You, Lord. My selfishness did not allow me to see what, with Your perfect eyes, You saw for my life. Now I see how I was not prepared for any of what I so greatly awaited. I hope I do not fail You again in the same things in which I have already failed before. I hope I do not dishonor You. Do not let me forget, Lord, that everything was made through You, for You, to glorify the holy name of Jesus. Forgive me, Christ. Do not allow my pride and selfishness to speak for me.
I NEVER GIVE UP. I WILL NOT GIVE UP. Nothing shakes my conviction. I know, and I know because I know. No one can change that. I will get there, where no one has ever arrived. Unbelievers will look at me and ask me: How? And I will tell them, without hesitation: For nothing is impossible for God.
Unbelievers! And they still call themselves Christians. For I say they are not, because they do not know Him.
STUBBORN MEN! They continue to doubt the words of Christ! They will suffer as long as they do not realize that: From Him comes the Truth. For in Him there is the Truth. For He is the Truth.
For the Lord taught us:
“I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”
Believe in the Truth, in the message that Christ delivered.
Stubborn men! Instead of listening to Christ’s words and believing in them, they turned Him into a divinity and worship Him as if, by doing so, they would be saved. Naive ones! They do not understand the Truth, and therefore, when the day comes, they will say:
“Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name? And in Your name did we not cast out demons?” And the Son of God will say: “Depart from Me, for I do not know you!” And they will be cast into the fire.
Naive men, they believe that, to be saved, they must worship an image — and they forget that Christ came to bring a message. Do not look to the cross! Stubborn ones! The cross will not free you from torment — only the Word of Christ, when it enters your heart, will do so.
Until when will men continue with these fascinations? Until when will they nourish illusions? They only want to remove the weight of their sins, but they do not accept responsibility for their own salvation.
Understand the Truth — and it will set you free.
“For they, seeing, do not see; and hearing, they do not hear nor understand.” — Matthew 13:13
I WANT KNOWLEDGE — TO KNOW THE LITTLE THAT IT IS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO LEARN. Reality is infinite, and the ways in which life expresses itself are as well. What I wanted now was love — a deep, eternal love that only the spirit can feel. But there is a reason for me to be here: not for my own happiness, but for Christ’s will for my life.
If my intuition is right… if what I feel is truly revealed to me from on High… I will have, in my hands, the greatest responsibility my soul has ever had. It will be my greatest opportunity for redemption — or it will be the abyss from which I will never emerge. Are you responsible for the good that you do not do?
HOW CAN I DESCRIBE THE CERTAINTY I HAVE, WITHOUT HAVING ANY EVIDENCE THAT POINTS TO IT? A certainty that you simply know is, but do not know how. Nothing reinforces it — only your heart. A question whose answer you do not know, but about which you have no doubt. Intuition.
I never saw myself as an intuitive or faithful person. But when I realized that I had left behind everything I had learned and surrendered completely to something I had only as intuition, it was then that I came to know my faith.
The responsibility that is in my hands feels more like a burden than a blessing. And even so, I see no other possibility — it is my duty: to use what has been revealed to me to the fullest of my abilities. I hope I do not disappoint the world. I hope I do not disappoint Christ. Why me? Who am I? Am I just deluding myself? I have failed many times. I have failed so much that I know I am failing again. Am I not just a narcissist, who sees greatness where there is none? I am tired of doubting myself, but, in the face of the facts, that is all I can do
Even in the presence of faith, doubt takes its place — doubt of oneself. No one can give me this certainty except time itself.
HOW MUCH LONGER WILL I HAVE TO WAIT, LORD? HOW MUCH LONGER WILL I HAVE TO WAIT TO BEGIN TO LIVE? HOW MUCH LONGER WILL I HAVE TO WAIT TO BEGIN TO LOVE?
Time does not come. I wanted a connection. How long will I live alone? Surrounded by angels, but with no one who understands my truth. I prefer to sleep and visit you rather than stay awake. At least then I feel an exchange, a true understanding of my being.
Until when? I no longer want to wait. I do not like doubt, uncertainty — it corrodes us from the inside. A man speaks of what his heart is full of; my heart is full of waiting. The future does not exist, there is only the now. I want to live it in the now. So many signs, so many confirmations, so many synchronicities, but no evidence. No evidence that I am not deluding myself. Forgive me, God, for my impatience.
How I wish I could live that again. How I wish I could love, let that energy flow freely over my body. To be completely open and sincere with a person. Man was not made to live alone. Love is the only energy that completes us, and living blocked from it is what empties our heart. Love is the purest nourishment for the soul. Only by loving can we feed our spirit.
Love is the nourishment of the spirit. Allow yourself to feel love; notice the blessings that God provides in your life, feel gratitude, feel joy, feel love embracing you. Receive these feelings as deep and genuine nourishment, delivered to you by God.
“You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your understanding, and with all your strength. The second is this: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these.” — Mark 12:30–31
Fragments of an awakened soul 