Fragments of an awakened soul

The world still suffers greatly from disbelief, from skepticism, and also from sheer misunderstanding. Billions still have not understood the role of Christ, even those who call themselves Christians. My purpose is not to make them understand, but rather to make them think—to question a little and reflect. I do not want to convince anyone of anything, nor for anyone to be converted or to follow my opinions. My purpose is with Christ: whatever He asks me to do, I will do. Not because I am a blind and submissive servant, but because I am a loyal friend, who loves and remembers the profound love and regard I have already received from Him. Jesus is noble; I see in Him the way, and for that reason I consecrate His name and bless those who follow Him.

Lord, I do not know what You want me to write about, but I know that I want to create something that touches hearts, that makes people feel and listen to their own hearts. Something that makes them cry, but also makes them smile.

The world does not know who I am. No one needs to know who I am, but whoever wants to know will be here. I know that I think a lot. All of my thoughts, all of my deepest reflections, all of my truth, my way of seeing the world, what I feel, what I am, how I perceive things, how I feel—will be here.

All possibilities exist. The future is not written. We do not live in determinism. We have complete free will, not just the illusion of it. Parallel realities exist; the multiverse is far from being fiction. Even among infinite versions of yourself, only you will live your entire journey. Only you will live the decision of your next step.

The All that is everything, God, the primary cause of all things, is consciousness in its essence—the supreme consciousness that knows all, sees all, and feels all. The universe does not exist outside of Him. Everything that exists is in Him. Existence itself is the very mind of God. And there is only one consciousness.

The individual consciousness we have is the consciousness of God Himself. We have the illusion, but in truth it is God’s consciousness knowing, seeing, and feeling everything that you would feel in your life experience, yet alienated from all the rest.

I am here to be a witness of Christ, for in Him there is truth, and only truth. In Him there is the key to life, and outside of Him we are already condemned. In the understanding of His words lies all truth. Men do not understand, because they interpret with their own limitations and biases. Free yourselves from all limitation and you will understand. The truth is that there is no falsehood in any of Christ’s words. Everything He said shall come to be.

I want to give the testimony of my faith, even if only for my own soul. I trusted: I trusted everything I have, I trusted everything I am, I entrusted my future, I entrusted the people I love, I entrusted everything to the Lord. This is the testimony I will give: even without seeing, even without hearing, even without having certainty, I trusted—I trusted in You.

I trusted in love; I trusted that the love that dwells in me guided me. I had to listen in a very deep place; in that place there is a light, and that light is God Himself who dwells in me and I in Him.

I hope the Lord will guide me forever. I hope to feel Your counsel more and more strongly. I trust, I trust and I will wait for Your orders. I do not need to know the whole path, I do not need to see everything that lies ahead, for even blind to the way, I know the Lord is by my side, holding me, and I will cross without fear the valleys of shadow and of death, because I know I will not be struck, for the Lord, who sees and hears the way, guides me.

No one sees the nights of doubt—the nights when I questioned everything, doubted everything, when I judged my intuition through my ego, when I judged my inner knowing as narcissism or even came to consider it insanity. No one saw when I put all my chips on the table, gave my whole being, without guarantees, without ready answers, and had to wait in uncertainty. When I saw everything collapse in front of me and the only thing I had to stand on was “intuition.” I can say that those days are not over yet, that I still question many things; from time to time doubt rises again and I think, “Is everything I believe really real?”

I continue to have the same guarantees—only faith. The faith that none of this is coincidence, the faith that dreams are not just dreams, the faith that God brings me messages through many means and that it is not just my mind creating meaning where there is nothing. No one sees this; they will see what looks like happiness. They will see what looks like success. They will not know how to measure the price I paid for it. I can tell you it was not cheap. Many will say it was easy, that it was luck, but only Christ knows all the times I weakened, how hard it was to believe. But I know He was always there, telling me, “It will work out. Trust.”

I surrendered myself to Christ; everything that was important to me I placed in His hands. I denied myself and did what I believed to be His Will for my life. I am who I am; that is enough.

Nothing is by chance. When we think we are in control of things, He is. Jesus is in control of my life, therefore I do not worry about tomorrow. I do not worry about plagues, wars, or famine, because I know I am with Him. And as long as I have not fulfilled my purpose, I will be here.

Nothing is by chance; the events of life have no randomness at all. The universe is alive, pulsating, and intrinsically intentional. Nothing is by chance: there are no mistakes, there are no flaws in the greater plan. We all live our roles in the theater of life; meetings and partings reveal themselves to be definitively intentional when we come to know the details of the greater plan. You are, and always have been, the greatest shaper of your destiny. The deeper you go within yourself, the more control you have over your inner universe and the greater impact you have on the collective universe.

I will do Your Will: whatever You want me to do, Lord, I will do for You. That is why I am here—to be Your agent in the great transition of this planet, to be a beacon in this world. I will do it, in respect and honor to You, Lord, because You did not forget me; You were faithful, and Your love is the greatest this world has ever seen. We will remember You, Lord, every day, so that we may carry out Your work, build Your church, and transform hearts. You are my Master; the Lord is my King. I bow before You in reverence, and I await Your orders.